Life...

It has been a while since my last blog.. i actually created a new blog for a new beginning.. but never realize it is actually another dead end.. life sometime appeared as a human view.. with such limited sight.. we never can see the path we taking in front.. or far enough too realize where it will bring us..or is it just me.. why can't it tag along with signboard on each path showing us.. pointing out each path is connecting to.. it will save us alot of trouble indeed if everything can be as clear as a sign.. SIGN.. sound more like SIGH!! to me now..

I've been hiding myself for the past 6 months now.. at first i was thinking to live my life the fullest.. but then.. i just stick myself inside a room.. glued onto the chair.. just keep online day and night.. sleep, eat and online.. that's what I've done for this past 6 months now.. separating myself from the outside world.. why? what have i became.. "NOTHING!!".. that's the answer.. I'm just a nobody with nothing to care, to love, to fight.. the darkness in my life.. betrayed.. loneliness.. crying on my own soul.. hurt from being deceived.. for every step that i have made is a step closer to my own graveyard.. who could i blame? myself.. for being a naive to trust a person.. i have been given so many sign but still i walk myself to death..

I really can't forgive myself on making the same mistake.. trusting the wrong person.. it is really a joke.. it seem like I'm really naive then.. I'm not a kindred person.. but why.. why can't i erase this from my feeling.. why can't i be suspicious on everyone.. and everything.. i don't want to trust anyone anymore.. i don't want to be the person that should be giving.. i just want to take.. take.. take.. i should be selfish.. be greedy.. anything which is not my problem i should neglected it..

Hoping for time speeding up thing faster and faster.. let the hurt pass away.. let the time washed of the pain.. i really feel unfair.. why has to be me..

"Promise meant to be broken, Trust meant to be betray"



Specially to the women i met in Boston
Samantha Tham Mei Yin
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