Freedom

What's the definiton of this word anywhere.. from the day we will born till the last breath in the world.. we will always chase a dream of "freedom".. but honestly what's freedom.. where do we find this freedom.. as a child we were taken care by our parents.. when we grow up we need to work for foods.. when we marry we need to support family n children.. when we die we need to bless the living.. for the whole life of ours.. we have commitment and responsible from the first day we will born.. there's no everlasting freedom in the world.. not as i know.. face the fact.. we are not bird.. we are not animal or any kind of beast.. everything we do will come back to us.. in Buddha we call this a karma.. even u don't believe it.. it still a cycle.. work now earn better living later.. live better now work harder in the end.. catching just a moment of it make you suffer for half your life.. and now i'm suffering it................ thankx for my silliness.. god bless.. lol

Finally LVL60

Yippeeee.... my character in silkroad is finally lvl60 now.. moving up fast now.. but unfortunately the lvl cap seem to have been increase to lvl80 now.. darn... need to catchup 20 more lvl.. when will this all end.. most likely a never ending race here.. at first thinking of changing character build but now have to plan again.. the Sp is getting low some more.. my goodness.........

Back to real life.. Trying to find a way out from all this misery.. a new year is coming soon.. don wanna spend my life looking like a stupid beggar anymore.. please god..

Scrap Scrap Getting the crap out of it

Yeap! New work but still the same job indeed.. collecting all kind of scrap here.. from electronic parts to metal-plastic anything u can say.. confusing in my job really.. getting more confusing in my life too..............

First day of work

Today an appointment with JVC electronic.. nope.. not that i'm going for an interview.. going to have a meetup with the person in charge of the scrap.. yeap.. going to collect all the scrap from JVC company.. if the deal is on.. they will be my first supplier of scrap den.. which mean money is coming in.. gosh.. i'm starting to get too realistic here.. nothing comes up in my mind nowaday just money.. since Ray is in Malaysia he decided to go with me this afternoon.. is ok for me.. since he always express he is so pro.. i'll just learn from the expert himself den.. let the master do his trick den..

Yesterday night coming out an idea to gain moire money.. going for freelance for a few line here.. more related to website and event kind of thing.. since i'm a Business Development.. just helping others develop their business den.. just a middle man.. if they close a deal i get the commision for introducing.. not bad.. just use the technological advance system which has been in the country for ages now which is "internet" to lookup for client for it..

The idea is there.. now betting my luck on it..

Real Life

Back to the real life now.. the planning for going to US has been hold for (unlimited time) yes indeed and the reason still NO BUDGET.. and this plan will be catagolize as MISSION IMPOSSIBBLE.. so now, the plan has changed again.. i'll be doing more into KL market and responsible at scrap collecting.. doesn't matter.. the most important is money come first.. and i'm sure i need alot of tat.. who doesn't anyway.. yeah.. enough for the nonsense den.. hopefully nothing changed again and all went out smooth.. finally i've a title in the company now.. "Business Development" so professional.. don u luv tat..

Silkroad Online again..........................

Online Games

Games addiction again.. most of the time has been spend to online games now.. continuing my journey at the Risk Your Life (RYL) Archer LVL 83 now.. and then changed to Silkroad Online Archer LVL 54.. and this has caused my dear dear to start her Maple Story.. and she's more addicted then me.. gosh.. now a slavery of computer games.. wat s life..

Finally Return

Yeap... indeed it has been a while since the last blogging here.. i'm quite a shock myself when i see the last blog will actually 3 months ago.. gosh.. time really fly.. atleast we found out one thing for sure.. blogging do help in recording the time we spend.. ok.. need to start updating what we been through now..

Back to Business

Honeymoon over.. need to back into business now.. more work coming on.. need to get back into track now.. this is the most hardest part.. the body seem be out of control.. not doing thing that i desire.. in a more easy word "lazy worm" is biting in every inch of my body.. too much relaxing and resting recently or actually too tired to completing every task so frequently.. still lack of hard work.. not good enough.. getting tired easily.. feeling sleepy every hours.. losing the inniative and motivation.. maybe is the office.. i'm done siting in the office.. is killing me.. staying in the office like this better still i prefer to pack all the things and work in my house then.. more comfort.. atleast it's feel different.. way different.. i want to go home..

What am i? still complaining and whining here.. enough enough enough.. everybody in the world wish to find the perfect job they love and enjoy working for.. it is a dream.. but not many can fulfil that dream.. we should be glad to have the current job.. atleast we didn't hunger to death.. we rely on it to survive.. what can a person ask more.. keep the mouth shut and work..

My Birthday

Happy Birthday to me.. i have celebrate my 27 birthday.. i have a romantic dinner of 2 at a France restaurant.. having a very decent dinner with the companion of a romantic environment indeed.. a dinner which is so perfect only a little hassle happen between us in the very last minutes.. but thing goes through well in just a second.. listening to birthday song sing by my dearest and also whom i never meet before.. after the dinner we went to the second round continuing the celebration of my birthday.. once again.. birthday song is in the air.. yes.. arrangement by one of our friends.. but this time shouldn't be that glad already.. cause friends.. really jalat one la.. bringing out the birthday cake is like bringing out a bomb.. after the singing part, the wishing part come to the part to bite up the candle from the cake.. and a part which can't be skip.. ending up cake everywhere in everyone faces.. and the majority of the cake will be the birthday boy.. Thanks Guys..

Good VS Bad

My luck seems to be moving upward and downward so frequently worst then the share market nowaday.. on Saturday we decided to go clubbing at town.. but because of there say will be alot of block during the way home we cancel the ideato town and change place to go FX.. but because at the evening i drink alot of beer empty stomach with the gang.. i learn my mistake by taking the pain that is so awful (stomachache).. by thinking that the pain will gone after i ate something later.. but i'm wrong.. i totally vomit everything which go in.. and the pain din even get lesser.. during the way to FX i get a hot milo kosong which it say can help.. cause of the milo is hot i can't just suck it in so i need time to wait it cool.. so the guys go in first la.. by the time i wanna go in.. 2 guys rushing towards the doors which i'm approaching towards also.. i kinda feel strange about it so i also wait and see.. the other guy whisper to me that they are police and they are doing operation soon.. and tell me to find another places to party.. by not wasting anytime i quickly get the phone and call the guys inside.. but so sorry.. i can't make it.. is my luck or what.. in the end all the guys wasted a night in the police station..

Birthday Soon

Yeap.. getting older soon.. wasting one more years again.. what will make this year different then the others.. nah.. not sure.. cause still is a surprise.. but very funny la.. in this very moment i'm writing this blog i feeling quite funny.. she seems to be arranging something.. but can guess la.. she's running out of idea already.. asking opinion from others.. in the end.. nah.. better stop here.. don't want spoil her mood and effort.. I'm happy enough to know that she is trying her best already.. afterall this very moment is the most headache part for every gf and bf.. need to think for surprise, romance, splendid dinner and a marvelous gift.. headache headache.. this few days she has been keep asking me what i want and waht i need.. she seem to be looking for a prefect birthday for.. very appeciate that she doing this for me.. looking forward for the arrangement she plan..

The month of Ghost

Chinese tradition.. the month of all the ghost been release from hell.. the street now is crowded with people and also those we are forbidden to talk about at night.. nah.. yesterday went to a temple around Alor with Ray.. except doing some praying.. there will a tradition festival held in purpose to gain more luck.. for me.. i just follow.. is quite funny indeed.. make it as an experience.. the quite funny part is you need to spit.. spit out all your bad things and burn it.. anyway since it say it will bring more luck.. just hope so.. wish all the thing will come in handy..

Getting tired

The first of work today.. taking an off day yesterday.. since i've been working on last Sunday too.. just think as a reward for myself to take a rest.. the resource from my last previous job.. customer list wich i get from tradeleads is finally going to be use.. Kenny say i call them up.. can get some commission in the end.. nah.. what's the different.. in the end is the same.. too much thing need to be taken care.. is it impossible for me to arrange time for another job.. how to close up the sales, cost of price and even transport arrangement all i'm not sure.. tired of reporting every movement and waiting approval response for every decision.. always the middle men for everything.. enough is enough.. like the way now.. the world is very fair.. my value of work=my value of income.. that's final.. the lesser i get the lesser responsible i need to fulfil.. my life philosophy.. yet another bad habit.. not good.. not good.. i think i really need a vacation la.. need time to bend myself from all those crooked idea..

Preparation

Preparing for a funeral for myself.. i'm feeling like dying already.. nah.. cut the crap.. just kidding.. there're still alot of things need to be taken care.. afterall dting is not a solution.. money is the solution.. want to die also have to become wealhty first.. back to the topic.. Ray just come back from oversea.. so decided the US trip on September.. now need to work out all the marketing schedule and procedure.. i need to get all the resources now.. getting all the contact now.. maybe around next week my working hours will be change too.. need to follow the US time zone.. which is 12 hours later.. once again my time will be confuse.. becoming the ghost again.. sleep at daylight.. wake up during night time.. hahaha..

Really there were be alot of things need to be prepare soon.. if not.. then it will be disaster.. only me alone there.. no one help.. one man show.. all in my hand.. if can't handle also need to handle.. can't think too much.. have to sort everything.. clear everything.. my time is coming.. finally..
"I CAN DO IT"

Looking for a bed

Waking up in the early again.. but today situation is different because there were rain in the morning.. making the environment so cold.. this is the great time to spend it in the bed.. cover myself inside a cozy and warm converter.. it has been so long.. missing the day sleeping through the rain here.. the reason.. work loh.. no option.. what else can i choose.. take a leave for a nap.. don't make me laugh.. so many things need to be follow up.. responsible.. hahaha.. i know that.. only the condition not allow.. still in sleepy mode.. the yawn keep coming and coming.. the eyes seem to be getting smaller.. even now i'm in the office.. i really wish there's a bed here.. need to wake myself up.. ok..ok.. thanks god today is friday.. weekend in the corner.. few more hours.. sayonara.. wait for me bed bed.. i'll be back soon..

爱情

When thing are running smooth the other thing waiting for you is definitely... what do you aspect.. yeah.. for those who are unfortunate person.. never the less bad things are always in the corner waiting.. for me.. definitely the thing we call "爱" .. the feeling which GOD are also forbidden.. for those who have suffer this cause will definitely understand.. the problem seem to be unsolved for us.. as she always claim it's my fault.. the problem within us is not just that simple.. too much perspective need to be view.. hard to predict.. our relation are more unpredictable then the economy of Malaysia.. changes are faster then the weather.. from good to bad and sometime even worst.. eventhrough want to make some different also don't know begin from where..

爱 Should be a feeling of happiness.. a relaxing feeling which is sweet.. you don't have to search for it or even act for it.. it just so naturally exist within us.. you won't complain, whining around, cry or sad.. a feeling which can overcome all the negative force around.. a feeling so harmony that can give peace.. and then it's ............

Time to wake up.. for the above statement which has just mention are only a fiction where you can only find in your dream or movie.. please differentiate fact and fiction.. damn.. i really are not suitable to have any relationship.. really disappointed.. better kill myself.. thank you for all the support..

" 爱一个人是个缘分，得到一个人要珍惜，

生活在一起要容忍，最后的辛福一起走."

jhgj

The world of Reality

Reality is fact.. in the world we are living we never can under estimated the power of money.. yes again.. money is the main playing role in the world.. if not because of money we won't be stuck in our position.. every morning doing things that we are meant need to be finish.. taking choices that without any option.. a world where every penny has it value.. who have the big bucks have a great life.. every hours and every seconds money is counting.. time is precious because of the value of money.. but the main priority is not regarding about time.. struggling every minutes.. fighting every seconds.. for what purpose.. why are we born to such a realistic world.. what's the meaning of life.. earn for living.. work to survive.. the philosophy of life..

"Earn More For Better Life"

Don't even think that by leaving this world you will leave this cruel reality.. even your last breath from this world can't lead you to your escape from the devil himself.. MONEY still will haunt you wherever you go.. we still need afterlife money.. our family still need to buy house, car, money and etc for us.. if not we will be the same.. having nothing in afterlife.. even you go to heaven you will just be a beggar.. the fact of life.. sad..

New Month Bad Feeling

Coming to us the new month.. during this time now i'm starting to get tired.. or in a more suitable word "lazy".. starting to feel bored in all this cleaning up mess.. but can be done anyway.. a job.. responsibility.. but who can predict in such a sudden way my responsibility has grown far beyond my aspectation.. i really need to free my mind now.. continuing on like this is not good.. taking a break seem like so hard now.. especially everything need to be taken care for.. i'm in such a situation like a "baby-sitter".. can't leave my eyes for a second.. need to watch and watch.. don't even say about the freedom i've lost.. but also the control.. nothing seem to be in my control.. i just responsible as the watch guard.. time wasted day by day.. and my progress is stucking in here day by day.. correct patience is starting to wear off.. US is the last hope.. but before that i need to overcome alot of task.. and that's why i'm starting to get lost.. losing myself again.. i need time for being alone.. my only motivation is.. a promise.. a promise of a lifetime.. but promise are make to be break.. how can i be assure that this promise will keep it's word.. oh no.. i'm statinr to get a very blur vision now.. my future.. not in my hand.. my future...................

Rushing

Too many rushing need to be taken care of.. wat u aspect.. a person with so much position in hand.. should be normal.. the shipping in dateline.. the account in dateline.. even now need to start counting the salary for the staff.. GOD.. so many thing.. what operation is not operating now.. hopefully this will not take long man.. atleast there is a candidate in hand where we can choose.. so glad about this.. but in the end still depends on Ray.. if he don wan hired then nothing much to be happy about..

The US visa indeed is in hand now.. but still alot of thing need to be taken care before.. some more there are still alot of details haven't been discuss with Ray.. really thought so easy meh.. my company is a very most efficiency company.. everything we do we do it in a blink of eyes.. because of our efficiency and speed.. tat's why normally all of our jobs are need to be done last minutes..

"United State" is still processing in the waiting list now..

The last thing I need

Finally the rush for the Visa application is over.. the Visa has been approved.. now i have the permit to walk in /walk out whenever i want.. should be happy.. less worry a thing here.. but need to worry alot later.. pity me.. "Reality Life" nothing seems to be interest in this topic.. the first thing that flash in your mind when you hear this "My Life Are So Sxxk Man".. indeed that's wat we are toking here "Reality".. Nah! not that i'm having trouble on something.. just want to whine something out onli.. nothing in the world seem right.. that's the fact.. just getting use to it now.. just remember never think never thought..

My role in the office: (Check This Out!!!)

1. Shipping Co-ordinator
2. Receptionist
3. Banker
4. Temporary Accounting
5. Marketing Assistant
6. Clerk
7. Technical Engineer

Who's the man here!!! LOLZ.. actually it's nothing.. not really a big deal.. cause seems like alot of stuff but actually not.. the only problem is.. every task are last minutes .. tat's the fuss.. immediate/ASAP/urgent and so so so..... u wan a break.. u will get it.. but don forget u gotta standby.. why.. cause the day is not over.. there isn't one u know.. it's just like the "Neverending Story".. no one can aspect wat is next..

US Visa Confirmation

Rushing for the US Visa Application.. need to go to the bank for the payment of application fee, change hairstyle and take photo later.. all the form and supporting documents are ready.. the appointment has been made.. so the big day is arriving.. tomorrow the first step on a new journey..

My position

Last Saturday.. the day of our Super Admin leaving us.. it's such a loss for the company.. having a farewell party in Neway to deliver her to a new world outside.. hopefully the world outside is what she aspected.. so, by the leaving of her.. now i automated promote to admin.. lolz.. my title now is Marketing cum Technical Engineer cum Admin.. "Superman Return" indeed..

But just a matter of time only.. cause by this week i'm going to propose the request for the US Visa application form oredy.. if everything go smooth as predict then by earlier of next month i'm starting my new journey to US.. the life could be boring but the opportunity is much bigger.. a chance of a lifetime..

New Beginning

A new beginning from today..........................

............................the best solution for us all

LoVeLoVeLoVe

Everyone spend almost their life just to look for a person who they can share their life together.. but indeed how many person really success doing suck a task.. include me definitely.. is now half of my life.. and i'm still running into wrong path.. following the wrong road.. doing such a mistake is not such a big deal anyway.. we can be glad too.. cause failure is the step of success.. but do remember this the circumstances for this experience has a price.. we could end up in serious injury.. and also the breaking apart of your confidence..

Women is a hard thing to understand.. but does this make a man better.. who know.. or maybe the sentence should be pronounced like this.. "Human are unpredictable".. sometimes if you think about it they are more worst then beast.. even for beast they will kill for a reason.. but human can kill just for love.. so crazy.. is just like "I LOVE YOU, U GO DIE" then stab a knife into your chest..

Nah.. not that serious i think.. but this kind of thing to flash in most of the lover eyes.. love is so much complicated for a person like me to understand.. the only option is i need to learn a supernatural power.. "Read mind".. this will be easy.. ya i think human races should have this.. since everyone like to make the blame to communication breakdown.. why not just invent something tat can read mind.. so in future don need to talk just scan the mind.. "Yes, I know what u thinking."

Enough for all the nag.. The conclusion is I've breakup with her.. i think you can noticed.. atleast now i've something less to worry about.. PEACE my fren.......

The"LOVE" is dying.

No need to say.. by the tittle of this everyone can guess.. i never like to pronounce it like this but i donno why she like to say like this.. anyway since the word lik this oredy appear maybe she herself is right afterall.. be prepare.. she preparing for the worst.. maybe in her mind and heart she have the whole planned oredy.. who's know.. onli the God maybe.. however since in her heart i'm tat useless.. i've nothing to say.. nothing to object.. watever the result in the end.. hope she felt happy.. her decision will be final.. and tat's all........

"A BITCH for...............to lay some shit"

"FINAL"

The hottest topic in the world has ended now.. with laughter and sadness.. finally the champion is Italy.. nothing much to say.. i'm disappointed cause my team actually is.. nah.. don tok bout it the stupid egg (Zidane) .. fuxcked up man.. wat the heck is tat.. i really put alot of hope to you but.. wat i get is.. "A head in the Chest".. glad everyone is enjoying the night anyway.. wat a show.. a monk from shaolin definitely with his special skills the "Iron Head"..

Enough for the day.. by the defeating of my team.. i actually being defeated by myself as well.. hahaha.. is it a bit over reacted.. I fall sick.. anyway is it the fault of the world cup too.. why the matches need to be midnight here.. nah.. i know why actually.. just a bit of whining to make myself felt better abit.. i kept vomiting and the gas in the stomach kept on going n going.. the most unpredictable is i actually vomit in the gas station.. damn.. for a time being.. no way i will walk in to tat gas station again.. the tittle of the day "Throw up and run"..

Wat a weekend.. please.. i've nothing to ask.. just give me a normal life here..

Another 4 Years

Finally the german has lost.. thought this time their time should come.. but who can predict.. sorry german you lost your shot.. wait another 4 years la.. hahahaha.. but fairly by the performance of the Germany in the match yesterday.. come on.. out of form totally.. no wonder will lost.. try harder next time..

Again tonight the match of the day.. France Zinedine Zidane vs Portugal Louis Figo.. who can leads their teams to victory against the italian.. for me of course France man.. eventhrough their did broke my heart before but i still have hope towards them.. don fail me again guys.. if not really have to wait another 4 years again..

Semi Final

Finally semi-final of the world cup now.. where most of the ppl in the world has felt disappointed over the lost of Brazil "Samba-Heat".. atlast France proof that there arenot a losing team.. so tonight will be the match of the century.. Germany vs Italy.. definitely the hope is more into the host.. but never the less.. do not forget in history of soccer Germany defeating Italy statistic is lesser.. but who dare to say so anyway.. the ball is round.. anything also can happen.. by the defeating of England and Brazil.. no one dare to be the master of prediction anymore.. thw only problem occurs now is.. wat.. 3am.. God need to work how can stay up so late.. miss the live watching the repeat show.. no shiok.. know the score oredy.. need to figured out a plan here.. hahaha.. i know.. straight go home sleep den wake up at nite.. skip the dinner stright to breakfast.. football fever.. can't miss it..

Is It TRUE..

For me it's quite confusing too.. not really sure will it be true or not.. but by the looking of everything seems like it's really progressing.. by now everyone would have an question in mind "Wat r u toking about here?" Oh ya! forgot to say.. actually Ray decided to send me to US.. we will actually organize an office there.. so in future time i'll spend most of the time there.. totally base in US.. should be happy about it or actually sad.. not very sure indeed.. nothing much shouldbe happier indeed.. afterall to get the visa is not actually as easy as we thought u know.. quite alot of thing to be worry about.. some more still got the empress here.. anyway for the future this is the best way.. even through will miss here alot.. but don wan to miss this chances too..

Bad month

In just a blink of an eyes.. today i woke up realise that it's July now..

time really fly.. but is it.. I just went through the longest June in my

life.. it is like burnt in the fire of Hell.. the suffocation from beneath

your soul.. the pain that no one can conquer.. but atlast, i've finally

make it through.. i'm alive.. even through of that there were nothing

much to be happy for.. cause in the end i'm still a loser.. indeed i don

lose my life in this incident but the injury that occurs is nothing

different between death or alive..

The past is the past.. all the bad things left.. comes to good thing..

a new beginning in a new month.. nothing to whine nothing to cry..

looking forward for the change.. holding on in what i believe..

do have FAITH.. we can do it all..

All the BEST...........................

Paying the price

Happy moment usually won't last long.. yesterday action today result.. before you realise you are awake by the call of the pain in the stomach.. never hesitate liquor do kill.. by the pain i've suffer indeed i can confirm you all this is a FACT.. the whole morning i'm battling with my own stomach.. thanks god.. i've successfully taking back control in just a few hours.. because of the excitement of yesterday action.. my whole body seem to be breaking apart.. too tired.. afterall haven't rest enough.. the attraction of the bed really is irrestable.. once again i've lost control of my body again.. going back to sleep..

Time really fly.. in just a blink of eyes.. it's afternoon oredy.. need to get myself up.. today need to go to office.. this is really a struggle.. fighting my way out of the bed.. damn i'm tired.. still feeling so blur and uncomfortable.. the mind still abit blur and slow.. effect from drinking too much liquor yesterday.. no more alcoholic during working day anymore..

Having fun..

Today send the report to Ray.. atleast finish the assignment he ask me to do.. only able to contact a few supplier but better then nothing.. hopefully doesn't disappoint him.. he did ask about my progress in office and also the task i suppose to finish up.. i really scare tat if he found out tat i didn't goes to the office as often as he aspect.. but anyway tmr need to start to go back to office as usual.. atleast finish up my last task.. the Brainstorm.. the most important mission of the all.. the matter of life and death indeed.. god.. but work is work stil need time to relax myself.. coming this saturday.. rave at genting organised by Chivas.. definitely i'll be there.. ha..ha.. i'm back..

Just now being pulled out by Stuart.. Happy hours in Bla Bla Bar.. never thought tat i can have fun at this place.. but don't ever make a conclusion so fast.. i'm definitely very blur now.. tis also mean tat i'm very high too.. so wat do you aspect more.. is it the cause of all those pressure.. such a release.. i feel so good at this very moment.. no arguement.. peaceful.. fun.. laugh.. happy.. is it such a wonderful day today.. please god... make it last forever.. I LOVE YOU.......

Starting to cool down

The passion.. the persistence.. those positive and motivate words.. there are starting to vanish in my mind now.. not only lack of support but starting to lose the energy too.. the soul is dying.. trying my best to hang on to it.. but till now also without any response from any side.. and till now also doesn't understand much on how to really close the deal.. i only know how to search and search and search.. but wats the progress after tat.. follow up.. yes indeed.. even the warehouse condition i also doesn't understand.. how to follow up den.. wat kind of info i can told the client den.. day by day.. i'm getting lost again.. all the negative field around me.. pushing me.. strangle me.. suffocate me.. i'm running out of air.. help me pls....

"Thanks for ALL the support I can get"

New Job.. New Mission...

Today, the 1st day going to the office.. finish my 1st task.. the website for the used computer.. not really my task actually but since got someone ask me to do tat.. just obey and do my best.. just using a day to finish this little assignment.. so the coming days i can concentrate on my own stuff oredy.. but not having a good environment in the office.. not tat the people there are not friendly.. anyway i don't want to talk about it.. the only thing i wan to think now is just concentrate on my job only.. for now, i don't want any interruption.. don wan anymore bad things happening..

After office hours.. really felt so tired at the body and even inside the soul.. been feeling not well since the afternoon.. and this is wat i'm saying.. the last thing in the world tat i want to aspect.. i can't wait to rush back.. siting at the couch.. watching some movie.. tis is the way i like to relax myself.. keep on thinking of those thing make me hurt.. i can hardly breath in the car.. the feeling so drastic.. just try my best to let myself relax.. but after the dinner time.. not long.. receive a sms from Ray.. nah! definitely not a good sign.. another things need to be done for him.. and this time is stated must get it tonight.. Gosh! must work it out.. but so tired.. wat to do.. no option.. need to be online some more.. watching at the screen.. scrolling the mouse.. tapping the keyboard.. searching for keywords.. this is my new life.. my key of life..

Office time

After so many days just staying in the house doing all those preference.. starting to get use of it.. but now need to go to office oredy.. but anyway just temporary cause Ray is not around and Kenny will be on holiday.. only 4 days won't be tat horrify i think.. just went to office has a little brief on following his work.. in the brief is easy but in the field.. hard to say..but who knows wat the jobs is included.. have faith i think.. some more need to work out my own thing.. must plan..

Is it a matter of life and death too.. a matter on surviving.. i need to achieve something to get my place.. atleast let me close one sales.. if not den i'm finish.. need to wait for a longer time.. the chances is now.. just waiting for me to grab it.. come on man.. don fail me.. headache man.. so many things need to accomplish so little time.. ARGGGG!!!! pressure..pressure..pressure..

WHAT WE DO TODAY; EFFECTS TOMORROW

Mission Accomplish..

Finally finish the task Ray request.. thanks god.. wat a relieve.. my job title will soon be called IMF (Impossible Mission Force) agents too.. i'm not saying tat i look like Tom Cruise.. just a statement to prescribe my job only.. ok back to the topic den.. i just mail him all the attach info to his mail.. now only hope tat the info is useful.. quite scare.. if this 2 day effort is just a waste.. den Ray will be very upset.. and oso mean i've failed the task too.. aiks.. scratching head.. everynight keeping on like tis sooner or later i definitely became night stalker.. night watch..

Gotta get hold to the time now.. need to work out the working schedule.. now starting to get use of staying awake at nite.. if still not going to adjust back the time.. later on, definitely can't stay awake for office time.. not only effect myself but actually the work.. everyday need to wake up by call from customer.. wat a joke den..

Can't stand oredy.. starting very tired.. need to find my dear.. gotta sleep.. going now....... zzzzzzzzzzz................

What A Day

Today meet another client again.. see some supply in the warehouse.. a big deal but can't do closing.. cause not enough supply to give..wat a failure.. normally should be sad of not having order or customer but now sad of not having enough supply.. aiks.. wat's going on wit the world tis day.. now just hoping tat the coming supply will be in larger quantity.. if not.. i oso doesn't wan to imagine..

The whole day still feeling unhappy with the incident last nite.. wat the heck.. so wat.. i'm little air.. i admit tat.. some more found out tat the person last nite is actually not Adeline.. is actually her bf.. wah lau! who the fxck he think he is woh.. wealhty dog can go barking everywhere.. studying in university about economics make you so different from the others.. the only different i can see is only you have a wealthy father only.. can deal one project earn 6 million.. ya! rite.. u go to hell i burn you more then 6 million.. donno why.. come to tis topic i really feel so geram oredy.. if i see him in person i think i really can't control myself liao.. ok..ok.. stop it..

Just now get the call from Ray.. need to get all the info from him.. tat's why still awake.. gotta search for all the info now.. scare tat can't get enough.. den really kena.. later still need to search for other some more.. very tired now.. the mosque oso start singing oredy.. need to rest la.. machine oso can't stand oredy.. can't fall now.. still alot of things to do.. some more can't lose to tat bastard ma.. i need to save bullet now to go to war wit him.. in the future.

Duran Duran Duran

As usual.. wake up at the noon.. start my work.. sorting out the list i'm having now.. planning for the potential customer.. quoting the price.. handling all the mails.. searching the internet.. the whole day is quite fascinating.. every minutes and every second seeing the list growing.. but why do i've to bumo into her.. nope.. tis time is not my dear.. her friend actually.. she login the msn during dinner time.. so naive and sarcastic indeed.. not sure of why.. maybe her bf is too GREAT.. rich in the family maybe.. business talk with me.. aiks.. i also feel stupid from talking to her.. but she really make me feel so duran.. saying her bf bring her where.. done a project which can earn him millions.. give her all the things she wanted.. and then ask me wat i can give to my dear.. sxcked man.. wat's the fxck is tat.. ok.. fine.. i'm not tat well achieve comparing with her bf then so wat.. still wanna say "Like tat oso can get my pretty fren; thanks god my bf not like you" who the hell is she to judge me here.. eventhrough your bf is terrific you oso no need to show it out la.. come on.. humble a little bit k.. your bf is rich.. he gets wat he wanted.. i need to fight for all the things.. i oso wish tat chances drop down all the way from sky too.. but no this a reality world.. anyway need to thanks her.. atleast there are some innovation.. playing the game of comparing.. FINE.. compare it later.. BRING IT ON!!!

Nothing in this world can take place of presistence.

Talent will not; nothing is more common

than unsuccessful people with talent.

Genus will not; unrewarded genius

is almost a proverb.

Education will not; the world is full

of educated derelicts.

Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.

Busy

Quite a time din go blogging nowaday.. busy with all those job.. everyday seem like not having enough time.. staying till 4-5am.. need to get more contact list.. everyday doing all those extract, e-mailing.. keeping up the pace.. racing for the time.. fighting for every chances which is left outside.. my passion for this job grow stronger day by day.. wat i'm aiming is the impossible for everyone.. i'm looking for an infinity numbers.. perhaps is a dream to almost everyone.. but money will not be earn by only one person.. but surely i'll grab all that there din precious.. persistence.. Ray when to Germany to look at the supply.. will not back during this 10days.. my contact is getting bigger.. the 2nd part of my job is turning all this information to resources now.. and then the 3rd assignment waiting for me.. our own website.. need to get more time.. can't waste any of the time..
Some more Keong need me to help him with the optical market.. but Stuart seem to be in need of money kept asking me about it.. since i'm unable to attend more myself into it.. just let him do the work i look for contact.. aiks.. need to find optical contacts for him too.. and then if the sales goes well we will share it.. afterall tis is the best solution which will not effect my current job.. don wan to fail my tasks.. my goal is much more bigger..

Great news

Yes!.. today definitely goes well indeed.. atlast there are great news to be happy about.. early on still worry tat Ray won't agree.. will hesitate on our idea.. but what do you know.. maybe, tat's why sometimes gotta be positive.. i got the job now.. this 2 dayswill start contacting and make a list out.. maybe at end of next month will get all the response.. after the base is set.. all operation will run smoother..Ray even recommended me to help with the trading part.. he hope for some one to help him in tis part.. I've no problem at all.. looking forward to start soon also.. for temporary now the office will be base at Ketumbar.. the company name will use Ray sub company.. later Ray will get all the equipment home.. we will have the PC & fax.. once all the things is set then the real job begin..

The adventure start now.........

Big day

Tomorrow will be the big day.. having dinner with Ray.. and talk to him about the plan we have gone through.. if Ray agreed then we will start the connection.. if things goes as aspected.. profit shouldn't be a problem at all.. the second thing is get the US Visa.. the opportunities to rise back is tomorrow decision..
*quite sad.. till now no response from the star yet.. the chances is quite timid..

Disappointment

This is a feeling no one can neglect from.. but i think this is too much for me from the gang.. is it my fault.. or my circle of fren is really tat hopeless indeed.. on monda night, he called and say he is on about the job.. we just give him a nick of "Mr. A".. he also ask tat if our fren "Mr. B" joint together is it possible.. and ask tat when should we go for thw interview.. at first i told them yesterday but because of the job i promise Ray i need to changed it today..
In last minutes Mr. X called tat he is unable to attend.. his excuse is not feeling well.. I'm bored with ther excuse and waiting.. so I decided to go with Mr. B.. we went for the job interview and succeed to get the postion we wanted.. on the way home.. Mr. B started to feel obligated with the job.. his excuse is because he need to fetch and pick up her gf.. if he start to work there no one is availbale to fetch her.. damn shit! wat the fxck excuse is tat.. sorry for all those word.. but really not making any sense.. you decised to find a night job you suppose to understand the time.. now only you realise.. wat the hell are you thinking then..

YOU'RE NOT MEANT TO WORK,

YOU'RE MEANT TO PLAY

Opportunity or Threat

Today promise Raymond to help him sending th e-mail.. he need to find more supplier to get more supply.. not quite a favour actually.. can say it's a job.. cause he's going to pay RM80/day.. I start at 3m plus.. before dinner time half of the mail has been taken care of.. still deciding to have dinner at home or going out with dear.. Ray called.. he ask us either need to get some take away during the way back.. ya.. why not rite.. just in time to save our hard decision on wat to eat anyway.. I continue back the job while waiting for Ray to come back..He returned home with foods around 9 plus.. so we sit and have the dinner together chatting about the job and his work together.. I realise as Ray employee's benefit.. the reason of why his family member like to work with him.. I also realise there were an opportunity to work with him too.. After the dinner, Ray need to get ready.. seem like another appointment need to be attend.. afterall, it's his style..
The idea 'pop' to my head.. I descibe it to my dear tat this could be a chance to help Ray and some more we can get some incentive too.. my dear understand and get wat i mean.. she say tat tis idea has been present to her long time ago by Ray.. but she's not interested.. now she agree with my idea.. thanks dear.. i know you agree cause i'm the one who sell u tis idea now..

IF NOT BECAUSE OF ME

YOU WON"T AGREE

this make me scare too..

Now it's me who get confuse.............

All night long

It has been quite a time for all of us going so wild.. especially Keong.. from Bla Bla Bar to Yahoo and den Lai Kah Tong some more.. definitely a crazy night indeed.. about 12 hours of party.. never seen him so blur nowaday.. the old him has finally came alive yesterday.. maybe time passed or i'm really old now.. I seem of can't really enjoy the fun in these underground disco like the old day.. accompanying them t these places yesterday only proof tat;
It's like a torture,

"Loud music makes your ear numb,

Crowded people full of Ah Beng,

Illegal drugs everywhere,

Every minutes every seconds,

Worry of Police's raid,

Worry of fighting in the crowd,

Worry of my dear especially."

wanted to say "TAK NAK" but really don wanna spoilt thre mood.. should be ok.. only occasionally.. not very frequent..

Innovating

Sunday.. family day.. staying at home nothing to do.. so sudden having the interest to clean up the room.. since an idea came out from my thought.. why not t the same time change tho whole outlook of thr room.. decided to dodified all the thing in the room.. nope.. not changing the furniture place.. just change the outlook.. ha..ha.. an artist is born in this room.. aot of stuff i've found from the old day till now.. this is really what you get from cleaning up indeed.. missing and found now.. another happy celebration need to be held later.. have been work for the whole day now.. but still haven't finish.. running out of idea on how to finish up the other parts.. too tired.. continue tomorrow..

Scandal

Today went to Pandan Kapital to pick up my dear.. her colleague has fetch her there.. so, i parked the car next to them.. as soon she saw my car, she get ouut of the car and straight to mine.. at the same time a guy coming from no where approach me.. knocking at my car window he say:

Guy: Hello there, nice to meet u

Me: Ya.

Guy: You guys just finish shopping here. I'm from xxx company. We are doing a function this 1st of May. Now doing some survey. You look so young working or studying?

Me: Working. I'm sorry. I kinda rush here.

Guy: Oh! It's OK. I only give you this envelope you just fill your details and open it to see what prize you get....bla..bla..bla.....

Me: OK, get to the point (Quickly grab the envelope and wrote a few details and pass back to him.)

Me: OK. Done.

Guy: Let's see. OH! Congratulation. Do you know tat you won yourself a car here. A proton Wira. There were only 4 car be giving out. You are so lucky.

Me: So.... then wat..

Guy: Is very easy. Now you only need to fetch me to Klang Lama to find my boss. We need you to fill up the application to claim the prize.

Me: Sorry, I'm not interest.

Guy: Why you don trust me.

Me : No. I really in rush ok.

Straight away I close the window and left the place.. for me i think he's more interest to nab the car den:

1. The guy impression are really bad; outfit and grooming look like a rascal
2. No ID, Namecard or proof he is emplot by the xxx company, only show me the old newspaper and some old flyer and some more all tangled up.
3. The function start at 1st May why the prize seem to be picked now

Movie

Wat's happening to me? maybe life's too bored.. need something to bump up the heart.. to boost the energy up.. the whole day I've been watching HORROR movie.. keeping on entertain myself with more and more horror movie.. getting crazy soon.. really.. from the scare you to death spirit to those psycho maniac grabbing a bat smashing ur head.. blood everywhere body been slash and cut lying all over.. heart pumping indeed.. hopefully I'll not become those psycho later..

Betray

Finally, the big reveal.. the brother I've been through so many years.. Ya! everyone will thought tat it's my own stupility to tot tat.. but..... all is a past now.. no wonder ppl say he is a demon.. to figured this out now.. are really too late.. the worst has been done.. I really want to kill myself for all tis.. wwat a big mistake I've made.. except blaming myself I cant thought of a better solution to solve all tis.. What can I do now?
tis has been a fatal fall of my life indeed.. I cant let tis get hold of my life.. gotta wake up.. definitely the world is cruel but keeping on whining and crying and blaming won't help.. all useless..
once again MONEY proof its important....

Money

Money is like the the oxygen that we breat into our lungs everday.. we definitely need it to suebive in this world everyday.. everything has its price.. the only thing which is free right now are only the air.. but how long will it stay that way..

The reality of life,

Can you feel secure without a penny around?

What the heck is happening to the world?

Everyone wants to earn more,

The master plan to get rich,

The effort to gain more,

The sacrifice to change faith,

But still how many of those succeed,

Is it Faith?

Is it Destiny?

Everyone want to be a somebody,

Who wanna ba a Nobody.

*BE A ONE DAY HERO; THAN A LIFETIME ZERO"

Competition

Today the big day.. yes.. the appointment with "the star" took its place today.. so, as usual fetch my dear to work and straight to go to D'sara..arrived there before 10am.. at the same time there were another 2 opponent.. the smile on each other space but din really calm the situation.. there were be a battle going on soon.. oh.. going too far oredy.. back to the topic now.. anyway competition definitly will exist.. 1 of the guy Diploma at Informatic and the other one is from Utusan production team.. oh man! educational people everywhere.. quite scare the most proability I cant grab this opportunity is because i defeated by all those cert.. anyway done my best to out stand the others.. now only hope tat luck is on my way..
Another appointment today take place at 3pm but this is waiting for the painter.. to come Ketumbar finish up the last job.. damn him.. wasting my time delay till 5.45pm only he reveal up.. have to rush over to pick up my dear some more.. everything spo pack today.. now competiting with time..

THIS IS THE LIFE

More Note...

"You like to keep and hide everything from me,

It is not helping for our relationship,

It will only influence us, especially me.

Why everytimes must want me to find that,

I'm really really disappointed,

Finally I only found that you have so much secret behind me,

I really don know how to trust you anymore,

It seem like no trust and believe between us,

Don blame me of doubt you,

I only believe what I had to see with my eyes."

*This is what I get after she found my diary, so sad. u peep at my stuff and there's nothing inside you still wanna blame me. My wrong of not telling her where the diary is located at the first place.

Her art of work

This is what she wrote (in mandarin) I translate:

I really don wanna be with him anymore,

I really don understand,

Why I'm still here?

Why I want to suffer for these kind of man?

He doesn't love me so,

Why I wanna be so despise?

There were no change at all,

Only more worst,

The more I see him,

The more hurt I get,

Why wanna hurt me?

I really don understand,

Why am I letting him hurt me?

I don wanna trust him again,

He is just a love's cheater,

Why I wanna be tat stupid,

Others say he only love her,

I always thought tat the past is the past,

He love me now,

Is all wrong actually,

He doesn't love me,

If love also,

He not that love me,

I'm becoming more and more hate him,

He doesn't understand my sickness now,

Only compare me with her X,

I'm really scare,

Why is it so suffering?

No one can help me at all,

He doesn't take care of me at all,

One word of caring also without,

I told him,

I'm suffering, He only know how to say:

"You have suffer the whole day, which day you're not suffering"

This kind of word,

This is an act of a man,

If he love me,

He will never done this kind of barbaric thing,

I'll not sacrifice anything for him anymore,

This time just let it be " I owe him last life"

From today onward I've pay him back all,

He doesn't worth it.

*Why she always seem to be so dramatic to all.. since tat I'm so bad why is she still sleeping the half of my bed now.. I only wish that she is not tat emotional; Is tat kind of hard to wish for.. Since everyone is so suffering break off will soon be the solution.

"The LOVE is dying, NOT the people"

Frustrated

What a nice day I've been through today.. from morning till the evening listening to my mum's mumbling and complaining.. thanks God my uncle came back on time for the recsue.. or else I'll be the dynamite blowing off.. finally I've get myself the space and silence I wanted.. yes.. finally I cvan breath now.. almost suffocated to death.. but what do you know life is always like this.. happy moment really din last long..
So sudden something from the past came out from the grave.. tot of those thing die oredy.. but.. no.. it still alive in every inch of her heart.. the "X-Thing" came out.. so my beloved gf go on with her paranormal activities.. I'm really too tired to go on again with all those fuss.. I just left the room and go to the garden to finish up my work.. she stay at the room crying and wrote something..

"GIVE ME A BREAK"

April Fool

Adidas newest collection "White Series"and "Colour Series"launching today.. quite cool the collection.. especially the white series.. limited edition.. only 3 pairs in M'sia.. definitely have to check it out.. den u will know..
Another highly recommendation for the movie "Ïce Age2".. a comedy animation.. can help release pressureand tension.. nothing better than a laughto entertain yourself with.. definitely can cheer u up from all the fuss..
Coming this 5 april.. appointment with The Star.. looking forward..

Miserable

Nothing much happen today.. just a World War III.. damn you're rite.. again.. this time more dramatic and drastic.. a fight with more action.. not just word but.. OUCH!! i've been slapped over and over and over.. can't reallly count it.. cause it all happen in an instant.. thanks god.. i still can control myself for not returning the favor to her..
It seem like both of us beingtogether is like....... putting Saddam and Bush together.. Nah! something that meant like that we can't really change it anyway.. Confusing definitely.. scratch my head till baldalso will not get the answer anyway..
The funny part is after all those action we still end up havingour dinner at Mc'D with joke and laughter.. innocence me.. confuse rite.. nothing has been solve but both of us seem likeothing happen..
Tell me about it what a miserable life here?

I'm Back

It has been quite a while since the last login here.. this few weeks is a total struggle for myself.. changing in plan of my route too.. regarding the business plan between C.K and Chee Wai failed.. doesn't really sort of working.. just can say that partnership isn't easy.. totally suck.. since there were no big boost at the career.. nothing seem to be excited for oredy..
The last option that will change my life forever.. can't reveal too much.. cause it's still a big secret for everyone.. hopefully this time there were no more mistake or problems occur.. damn bored withthose bumper in life now.. just want a decent life here.. can't anything be smooth now.. nothing seem to be hopeful.. quite "HOPELESS"

#OPTIMISTIC- Ya, Rite! just let the sky fall

someone will pick it up later

Starting A Business..

Finally Chee Wai has agreed to join us now..
with Chee Wai experience and C.K in the back there should be nothing much to worry..
the location, strategy, and research has been roughy planned..
having survey on the landmark..
it seem like the area here is starting to built up..
quite crowded..
all the shop has been open..
only left 2 lots which is still empty..
really need to work it fast now..
don wan to loose another chance here..
this coming Wednesday have been arrange with 1 of the shop lot owner to have a look at the shop..
will try to decrease the price to RM1500..
need to wait for Chee Wai to get the price list for machine too..
alot of things need to be taken care now..
with so little time..
bc.. bc.. bc..
rushing.. rushing..

Manage my TIME

People are becoming more and more busier than ever now a day. This is part of the way I intend to manage my time. Like to share with all of you:

• Create a schedule or to-do list. Write down deadlines for accomplishing certain tasks.
• Plan to tackle difficult projects at the times of day when you are most alert.
• Schedule time or people, including myself. Create some personal time by waking up half an hour earlier or going to bed half an hour later then usual; plan a weekly date within spouse or arrange to have lunch with friends.
• priorities what need to accomplish. "Pareto's principle" states that 80% of your accomplishment come from 20% of your efforts, so think strategically: Locate and isolate this valuable 20%, then focus my efforts on the tasks that promise he greatest rewards.
• Learn to say no to nonessential demands on my time. Don't volunteer for a committee if I don't have time, and decline invitations or events I don't have time to attend.
• Overcome procrastination.
• Avoid perfectionism. Don't waste time obsessively perfecting a task when you could better spend the time on something else.
• There are many computer programs to help keep track of projects, and keep organized. Scout out some online sites or local computer store to find a program that works well for me.
• Sometimes being too efficient can make people lost track of why we need extra time in the first place. Don't be so indent to scratching things off the to-do list until don't have time for fun.

NEWS: Good vs Bad

as u can see yes indeed, there have been a great fight here yesterday.. the situation is really bad indeed.. regarding to whose fault is it.. hmmm.. still under investigation.. the suspect has been remanded for the whole night.. there are not much clue left in the crime scene.. since the case has no witness and victims.. we can't bring it to trial.. finally it is just a cat and dog fight.. but she is good.. she is really good..

....sniper....straight to the head.. kill u fast without regret.. so the fight end very fast she SHUT me down.. ganbateh dear.. hahaha..

THE DOG IS DEAD

wat to aspect more.. can't get hold of myself now.. the head keep banging out for question.. headache.. staring around at the room bringing me no where but having trouble to sleep.. first the time seem to pass by so slowly but in the way of seeing this is time really fight.. darn.. is morning.. i just fet like a few blinks of an eyes only.. so tired.. The eyes can't really open up.. she wake me up.. is going to be late to work.. quite amazing for our precious ladies.. everything seem to be recover so fast.. yesterday fight is not an issue for NOW i think.. oh..no does this mean later there will be "to be continue" parts.. can't dare to imagine some more.. got to think fast to do something excellent.. don leave any mistake for her to open up fire now..

alrite back to my own thing.. seem like everything should be coming in quite handy now.. so soon there are response for my job interview.. the coming interview will be this coming Monday.. hopefully everything is great.. scare for hoping so much here.. donno wat to expect anyway.. but definitely is better then staying in the family company.. keep doing something which i'm not interested at.. wasting my time..the coming week would be quite pack.. most of the interview will take place then.. send more application out now.. by the time then i've more option to choose from.. hopefully tat Shell is in the list now.. need to pray more now..

today the management send the plumber to come and have a look at the leakage of the bathroom into the bedroom.. early on thought is the cause of the rain spreading in.. after the checking.. then only we found out that the leakage is actually from upstairs pipe.. tat's not all.. it's actually the pipe coming out from the toilet bowl.. Sh*t.. it's really sh*t.. hahaha.. atleast now there is an answer for those strange smell in the house..

need to go clean up the mess now.. gotta go to pick some sh*t now..

c ya..

SILENCE

Same normal day as usual

fighting with my gf

having trouble with the sleep

feeling tired

feeling angry

most of all feeling not fair

but who should determine FAIR

life so tired

life so cruel

wat can be done

we are just only human

need to have faith

need to do ur best

let the god do the rest

so optimistic

finally it's just kept the silence

no more the complaining

no more the whining

accept the fact

tats the final of all

specially dedicated to somebody

My first blog.....

Wow! My actual first blog.. is quite embarrassing u know to have a blog now.. Anyway better start late den never..ha..ha..ha

It has been quite a time i'm unemployed.. but still surviving.. atleast if really die also not cause of hunger.. last year really is my worst year of all.. everything seem to be landed on me so cruelly.. lost the job, lost the soul, lost the love and lose of fortune..

My mum keep on #%$^#!@#.. wooh... give me a break here ma'am.. seem like everything i really wish for myself here.. GOD where u man?

Let's think it this way now.. all is a past a brand new year now.. starting now.. hopefully la everything should be better.. pls man.. it has to be better..


Today is a new beginning for all.. c ya..