My Way

I hate the feeling of loosing control of everything.. when this kind of things happen to me.. i totally felt lost.. maybe is the cause of my new job.. i still haven't adapt to it.. i knew it deep inside myself.. all things need time.. but i'm a very aggressive person.. everything i do i'll rush it.. patience is definitely not my field indeed.. only now that i realise my new job is suck also.. commission is counted every week.. but the boss doesn't promise the payout be on time.. need to pay tax some more.. the most important is i'm not in control.. seem like my big plan is getting delay then.. i been doing alot of thinking lately.. wanna give up some more.. too much negative force in my surrounding.. this is really an up n down for me.. thought of calling my school mate "Sachi" for help too.. but felt embarrassed to open up my mouth.. ego.. pride.. but still i wish to stand n fight.. i have struggle by myself so far.. i don think i can't make it.. i was born alone.. i grew up alone.. i don't think that i can't survive alone now.. that's my way of life.. my faith of life..