Once Again

At this moment.. my head is all blank now.. the problem kept on flashing at my thought.. seem like the problem is getting out of hand.. i really hate to admit it myself.. but the fact is still the fact.. accept it.. then give me a chance to announce it loud n clear.. "I've make a wrong decision again!".. from the start i step my foot to this country.. my mind have been set with only one vision.. one goal.. the only objective i need to accomplish.. which is MONEY.. but the fact now is.. i'm earning lesser then before.. my earning has been reduce.. i've never complain.. never whining.. never cry for my job and what i should do.. i really don't care n it never bother me before.. for the sake of MONEY.. now i'm sitting here in this so called quiet n spiritual environment.. doing every easy task.. let me rephrase.. not exactly easy at all.. it do need more commitment n responsible then the last job i have.. it's definitely a worth able place for u to spend time on.. a quality place indeed.. but still.. seem like the place is totally running an opposite side with my life.. i'm looking for breakthrough.. this is the time for me to move forward.. accelerate.. it's not the time for me to slow down.. i'm a kinda speed person u know.. suddenly i get the feeling of hating myself now.. gosh! can't i really do anything right.. c'mon at least do a thing that even myself also will felt proud of.. once again the fight against my inner self has occur.. i felt like stepping my foot in between of black n white.. Oh No! SOUND LIKE LIFE N DEATH.. better stop now.. or else my dark shadow beneath myself will break loose again.. then the circumstances is really unpredictable.. donno what will happen to myself again.. the devil that live deep bottom in my heart.. the one that i'm not interest to meet again.. gotta made up a solution.. think..think..think..

• Sometimes i really thought of giving up.. But when i think about.........Ha!Ha! nothing... there's nothing at all for me to think about it.. Damn! better give up then.. My way of life.. IS SUCK!!

Don't take those word too seriously.. it is just some frustrating word anyway..

I'M STILL ME